Well, when I was pregnant with Myla I couldn’t wait until she entered this world- but I knew I didn’t want her to come to soon cause I wanted her to have plenty of time to grow. I remember only being around 20 weeks worrying about what if she came early and once I hit a certain point in my pregnancy I remember the peace of mind that if I was to go into labor at that point she would most likely survive. Well I carried her full term, exactly 40 weeks and I was so thankful for that!
Now here we are on the adoption side of it. Every day that passes is another day spent away from our little girl, and another day that she is growing older without her mommy & daddy. I just want to get to her so soon and not miss anymore of her life. I sit and think about what she is doing, if she’s happy or sad, if she’s napping, If she’s being held, what toy is she playing with, is she getting closer to crawling?
Every time I look at Mina’s clock I imagine what I think she would be doing at that time. I wonder if she’s in bed come 8:30 at night. I wonder how orphanages are in the middle of the night. When babies wake up crying do they wake all the other babies up? Do they get comforted and loved or left to cry themselves back to sleep?
The waiting to me just seems so much more difficult because the waiting in pregnancy is a good thing because you want the baby to grow to full term, but the waiting for adoption is thinking about how your child is somewhere not being given the love and attention they deserve and the sooner you get to them the sooner it can all change.
• Please pray with me that the Lord will make everything go so smoothly.
• That the paperwork needed enters my mailbox asap.
• That during the meantime while we cannot be there that God surround her with His arms, Love & protection & that someone in the orphanage would just pour love into her & be there for her while we can’t.
• Pray that God prepares Mina’s heart to meet her forever family as well as all of our hearts.
It’s truly amazing how much you can love someone you never even met. All I have is a picture of her and I feel like she’s already stolen my heart away and that she’s been my baby since birth. Oh how I long for the day to embrace our precious angel!
4 comments:
My life is usually frustrated when I try to fit my time line into God's. God has a perfect will for this adoption. Soon enough you will look back and wonder where the time has gone. Hallie and I are praying for you guys. We have much admiration for you guys.
I got goosebumps reading this. This is just so exciting for you guys. I will keep on praying for this special girl and for you, Jim and Myla. I know you will be/are blessed by this, but she is going to be so blessed by your love for her.
I will be praying for you. I know exactly how you are feeling and I understand how hard it can be. It is such a strange feeling to know that our child, who we already love with all of our hearts even though we have never met him, is halfway across the world being taken care of by people we don't even know, living a life that we don't even know. It has been hard to adjust to these feelings because as you said, it is completely different than a pregnancy. So, I just wanted to let you know that you are not alone with these feelings and our prayers are with you. And, she is adorable!!!
Thank you all so much!
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